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| New Haircut <3 |
[July 31, 2007] |
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 I had my new haircut this afternoon. I got fed up with my old hair-do so I decided to have a new look. It's been four years since I had a short hairstyle. Because we are required to tie up our hair in every clinical exposures, I had to let it grow so that I won't find it hard in fixing my hair.
So... what do you think of my new hairstyle? Love it or hate it?
P.S.
I am back to my blogger account.
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| Hay. |
[July 19, 2007] |
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I am not interested to blog anymore. Maybe because I don't have any interesting things to blog about. I'll just go back here when I am in the mood.
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| Good news for Pinoy Nurses |
[July 11, 2007] |
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CHICAGO - The National Council of State Boards of Nursing, Inc. (NCSBN) will begin NCLEX testing in Manila, the capital city of the Philippines, at the international Pearson Professional Center on Aug. 23, 2007. Scheduling for examination appointments will begin on July 13, 2007. The Manila site was chosen in February by the NCSBN Board of Directors because of the deep commitment shown by the Philippine government to ensuring a secure test center. The placement of a test site in the Philippines will allow for greater customer service to nurses without compromising the goal of safeguarding the public health, safety and welfare of patients in the U.S. Intended for the purposes of domestic nurse licensure in U.S. states and territories, all security policies and procedures currently used to administer the NCLEX examination domestically will be fully implemented at this new site. Administration of the NCLEX examination abroad does not contradict or circumvent any current board of nursing process or requirement. All international candidates are required to apply to the board of nursing in the state or territory where they wish to be licensed before registering for the NCLEX examination. The NCLEX examination fee for all candidates is $200. Candidates who elect to take the NCLEX at an international site pay an additional $150 when they schedule their examination. State and territorial NCLEX examination fees remain at their current levels and are not being used to subsidize the international testing initiative. Offered abroad since January 2005, the current international sites for NCLEX examinations are in London, England; Hong Kong; Sydney, Australia; Toronto, Montreal, and Vancouver, Canada; Frankfurt, Germany; Mumbai, New Delhi, Hyderabad, Bangalore, and Chennai, India; Mexico City, Mexico; Taipei, Taiwan; and Chiyoda-ku and Yokohama, Japan. Source: https://www.ncsbn.org/1282.htm
This is certainly a good news for Pinoy nurses who aspire to be US RN soon, including me. Yes, I've decided to take the NCLEX-RN. I already passed my application form and school documents last week. I am in my waiting mode, right now. I am also currently reviewing to prepare for the exam. So, again, wish me luck! By the way, I would like to thank those people who bought Candy magazine just to read my article and thanks for liking it. Believe it or not, I've been receiving positive responses thru SMS and private messages about it. Thanks so much! =)
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| Me, My Article and Candy mag |
[July 05, 2007] |
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 When I was still a kid, I've always dreamt of seeing myself in a magazine. Either as a model or as a writer. I never thought that a simple dream of mine would come true.
I grew up carrying a Candy magazine on my hand. Candy has a big part in my life, even Teentalk (its official message board). I appeared in the magazine for how many times like being the Friendliest Teentalker in the Teentalk Awards 2005, Most Popular (very unbelievable. Really) and Teentalk Role Model of the Year in the recent Teentalk Awards 2007. Of course, my username "x-y" only appeared in those issues. Then there's this Certified Candy Girl thingy where in I appeared in page 24, I think, of October 2006 ish (as far as I can remember). And of course, those Candy shoutouts. These "appearances" weren't really a big break for me.
Last August 2006, the Candy staff looked for some people who could write interesting stories for them. Since I love writing and sharing my own nursing experiences, I tried to send an email. Fortunately, I received a reply from them that they are interested in my stories. They chose this one subject that I indicated in the email and so I prepared the article and sent it to them right away with some pictures that I have in my files. I think it was October of the same year when they told me that they liked my article and would try to publish it in the magazine in Jan-Feb ish of the current year. I was really excited when I heard about that news! I can't believe that they're going to publish it. Moreover, I was also thrilled that I would able to share my experience to a lot of Candy girls through a magazine not just in my blog.
My article wasn't published on the said month. I felt a little sadness but still hoped that in the next issues, I'll see my article printed on a magazine. Then last April, Miss Angel of Candy sent me an email and told me that they are going to publish my article this July (yehey!) and the rest is history... I already bought my own copy of the July ish and the first thing I looked for was my article. Haha. As soon as I got home, I showed it to my parents immediately. My mom told me that she’ll tell our relatives to grab a copy of Candy magazine. I can not imagine my lolo reading a Candy mag. =)) I knew and I felt that my parents were proud of me. It’s not that I saw my face on a magazine but I’ve done something to inspire and to send a message not just to Candy avid readers but also to people who would be able to read it. I am happy that in my own simple way I have shared the important lesson that I’ve learned when I was in college and that is to appreciate life and to respect mentally-ill patients.
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| Do not give up |
[June 23, 2007] |
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There are some instances that I just wanted to stop and to give up. But heck, if I do that it's like I am showing the whole world that I am a weakling. No way. I am a strong person. And I'll continue striving and thriving... Plus, I don't want to disappoint my parents... and most especially, God.
Life's tough, but you have to prove them that you're tougher...
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| Hay... Nursing... |
[June 19, 2007] |
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 The requirements
I arrived in the hospital just in time. The lady in the Human Resource Department asked me to wait for a couple of minutes. And so I did. After 48 years, the lady asked me what position I am applying for.
Me: Staff Nurse po *gives the requirements*
HRD Lady: Nasaan yun board rating mo? *scans my papers*
Me: Eto po... *shows the asked requirement*
HRD Lady: Oh.. I see. May cut off na kase kame. 80 and above lang na board rating ang tinatanggap namin. Nakita mo na ba yun nakapaskil sa labas?
Me: Po? May bago na po ba?
HRD Lady: Oo, basahin mo na lang sa labas *returns my papers*
Me: Sige po. Thank you po. *disappointed*
I was so dismayed when I found out that they only accept 80 and above board rating but on the other hand, I understand the rationale behind it. They are just protecting their patients from harm since we are talking about LIVES here.
So I went to another hospital with little hope since it's also one of the prestigious hospitals in the metro. Their HRD lady is more friendly than the previous one. Again, she asked for the board rating...
HRD Lady 2: Complete na requirements mo, iha?
Me: Opo. Second application ko na po ito. Di po yata ako natawagan before.
HRD Lady 2: Kelan ka nag-apply?
Me: Nung December 2006 po.
HRD Lady 2: Ano ba board rating mo?
Me: Seventy-tooooot po.
HRD Lady 2: Ahh. Eh kase that time, ang kinuha lang namin ay yun mga may board rating na 80 and above
Me: Ganon po ba? Eh ngayon po? *starting to lose hope*
HRD Lady 2: Di ko lang alam. Let's just see. We'll just call you for your schedule of examination.
Me: Thank you po.
Hay. I never really thought about this when I was in college.
All I knew is that I have to study hard and show them remarkable grades when I apply for a job. That's what I did when I was in college. I really worked hard to attain high grades. I had sleepless nights just to be one of the highest in our examinations. I made my parents proud. Although like what I've mentioned before, I wasn't able to get in in the cum laude list because of that effin' 0.1 grade. Oh c'mon.
When I first took the board exam, I really did my best. I took it seriously because I wanted to top the board. Unfortunately, I passed but I didn't get a high grade. I think the highest in our batch got 81%. That's how unearthly our exam was. Haha.
Now, I am going to hospital-hop. I am still hoping that they would accept us - those who weren't lucky to get an 80 and above grade.
Now to all those nursing students out there, you really have to strive hard. I. Am. Telling. You. You entered a world where life is not easy.
It's like a search for the next idol or search for the next star....
Out of thousands of applicants, only a few will be chosen.
Good luck to you. And to me. Now, pray for me.
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| Another Randomness |
[June 16, 2007] |
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New layout at my other blog. Here's the screencap:
At last, I have finally uploaded that layout. I’ve made that last April but I just got lazy in coding it. So there, it’s simple and clean. Actually, I am having doubts if it’s in a right grammar. Haha. I was thinking if tears and laughter is okay. Is there a plural for laughter? Para kaseng ang pangit pakinggan. Got comments with my new layout? I am accepting CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISMS. Thanks a lot.
I decided to make a different layout because I feel like everybody’s sick of my face already. Am I right? Oh c’mon, tell me.
Anyway, I went out yesterday with my high school friend. She came back from Hawaii because she has to study here in the Philippines for a 6-unit subject. It was an all expense paid program in their university so she grabbed the opportunity. Lucky girl. We just window shopped and talked about our high school days. She’s planning to have a reunion with our other friends since my best friend is also coming back from Spain at the end of the month. I am so excited because our barkada will be reunited after 4 years of being busy with our own lives. Isn’t that great? Here’s our only photo in my phone yesterday: 
at Cerealicious
That’s it. I have nothing to blog. I am still waiting for the results of our retake. And oh, I’ll start job hunting again next week. Wish me luck!
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| Logynon, what have you done... |
[June 13, 2007] |
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I think you already know that I am taking contraceptive pills (Logynon) for my endometriosis and also for these two existing cysts in both of my ovaries.
I just hate it because I am now currently experiencing the side effects.
1. Spotting - ever since I had my menstruation last May 19, I never stopped bleeding.
2. Nausea - there are times that I feel like vomiting. I tend to get dizzy when I stand up or move.
3. Headache - Argh. I hate you! You always ruin my day.
4. Mood changes - Oh yes. Very obvious. I easily get depressed, get mad... and *insert more mood here*.
5. Weight Gain - Still waiting...
I wish my doctor could discontinue my medication right away. I just don't like what I am going through right now. Poor Xyla.
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| At last! |
[June 12, 2007] |
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Retake's over. The exam was one hell of a monster.
Test 3 (Medical-Surgical Nursing) was easy. I just hate that there were some non-MS topics included. Grr. But if I were to compare it from last year, it's a lot way easier.
Test 5 (Psychiatric Nursing), on the other hand, contained a lot of out of this world questions. I wonder where did they get those questions... It was sooo hard! It gave me a headache. I felt like I was so disoriented when I answered those questions.
Now all I have to do is to wait for the results and to pray for a positive result for me and for all of us.
God bless my answer sheet. Amen.
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| Nasan na ang exam na yan! |
[June 09, 2007] |
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Nasan?! Akin na yang test paper na yan!
Hahaha. I remember how our reviewer used to boost our confidence when we were about to take the Philippine Nursing Licensure Exam last June 2006. He told us to be confident but not too confident. "Do not expect that you know everything..."
After two months of reviewing (or pretending to be reviewing), I admit that I still don't know it all. I forget some of what I've read every now and then. I am not perfect. I am not an expert. But I am very much willing to learn and to go on a continuous education.
I stopped reviewing yesterday. I am just trying to relax, and to calm myself from this mild anxiety.
So there, this is it! It's make it or break it day.
Good luck to Batch June 2007. Break a leg!
And to those 15,000 Batch June 2006 retakers, let's prove them wrong!
God bless to all of us and to everyone, please pray for all of us.
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| Hello, Stress. Bye Stress. |
[June 04, 2007] |
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It's school time once again. I can feel the school spirit as days pass by. Bookstores and malls are jampacked. Banks are crowded, as well. Whining and excitement of students are getting louder and louder each day. This will be the second year that I'll just be watching the students go back to their beloved alma mater or step their feet on their new second home.
"It's funny that you've been doing everything to get out of this place and when you've found the time to leave, it's when you've also found the reason to stay..." - school
It has been a year since I graduated from college. It was a nice feeling that, finally, everything I've sacrificed and worked hard for has paid off. But within those 12 months of being a bum. there are times that I become nostalgic about school. When I was a student, I really envied those fresh graduates who often visit in school. I used to tell myself that someday, I am going to be like them. Wanting and dreaming to be like the graduates became one of my inspirations and motivation in studying hard. There are a lot of things that I miss in school: my friends, my classmates, my group mates, my cool and stingy professors and clinical instructors, group activities, daily quizzes, and yes, allowance (especially for a jobless person like me). Despite my serious attitude when it comes to academics, I still enjoyed a lot in my school life. Although, there is one thing I really hated in school. STRESS.
Stress is everybody's worst enemy, I guess - may it be in school, work or at home. Being a nursing student was really stressful like in any other courses. We had clinical duties 8 hours a day for three times in a week, 3 days and 2 nights of community immersion every week until the contract ends, a lot of reports, nursing care plans and drug studies to finish and to submit, "short" quizzes which are 50-100 items and that is already considered a short quiz for us, return demonstrations for every nursing procedures, and those dreadful oral revalidas about nursing concepts which really made me anxious. Argh. It all gave me stress.
Stressed is Desserts when spelled backwards. It's just a piece of cake!
Did you know that stress is one of the causes, precipitating or risk factors of some diseases? Here are some of them that I remember: Raynaud's disease, coronary artery disease, hyperthyroidism, hypertension (which can lead to stroke and aneurysm), peptic ulcer disease, migraine headache and etc. I assume that you don't want to acquire any of those diseases that I have mentioned, right? Since prevention is better than cure, we should then avoid getting stressed. If we can't avoid it, maybe we can at least lessen it. Now go kill your professors, bosses or boyfriends/girlfriends! Hehe. Just kidding.
I found something from Gems of Thought (again). This isn't purely about stress but some of it might help us in lessening stress in work or even in our studies.
10 STEPS TO SUCCESS IN WORK
(which I think can also be applied in school)
1. Don't get the idea that you are Atlas, carrying the world on your shoulder. The world would go on even without you. Don't take yourself so seriously. - I admit that I am guilty in this item. That was the time that I was the leader in all of our subjects! Imagine the world I was carrying back then. Haha.
2. Tell yourself that you like your work. The it will become a pleasure, not a drudgery. Perhaps, you do not need to change your job. Change yourself and your work will seem different. - I never really liked nursing at first that is why it was so hard for me to cope up with everything. It was only in my third year in college when I learned to love it. And swear, I really enjoyed nursing a lot. That is why when you choose a course, you have to choose what you really love to do. And when it comes to your job, apply for work in a place where you know you would enjoy every days of your life because you are "into" it.
3. Plan your work. Work your plan. Lack of system produces that "I'm swamped" feeling. - True! You won't be able to finish a task if it is disorganized. Make a checklist!
4. Don't try to do everything at once. That is why time is spread out. Operate on that wise advice from the Bible, "This one thing I do." - Take on step at a time in layman's term.
5. Get a correct mental attitude. Think a job is hard, and you will make it hard. Think it is easy, and it will tend to become so. - Just condition yourself that it's an easy task. It's a piece of cake, right?
6. Become an expert in your work. It is always easier to do a thing right. - Practice makes perfect. If you're having difficulties in math problems, try to answer 3 math problems a day and check how the solution is done. If you are having difficulty in remembering laboratory values, memorize at least 5 lab. values a day, and it will really be a lot easier to remember.
7. Practice being relaxed. Easy always does it. Don't press or strain. - Don't pressure yourself too much. Try deep breathing exercises. I am once again guilty in this item.
8. Do not put off until tomorrow what you can do today. It only makes tomorrow's job harder. It piles up on you. Keep your work on schedule. - I am a crammer, and for a reason that I do not know, it is really effective for me. Haha. But I admit that it added pressure when I saw all those piled works.
9. At the start of everyday, pray about your work. You will get some of your best ideas in that way. - Ask for Divine Guidance. =)
10. Take along your "Unseen Partner". It is surprising the load he will take off you. God is as much at home in offices and shops as in churches. He knows more about your business than you do. - Do your best and God will do the rest. Amen to that.
I believe that if we follow those 10 steps, our stress brought by *insert causes/reasons here* will be lessened. What do you think?
So to Mr. Stress, get out of our lives. Goodbye to you. =P
God bless and Good luck to the students of school year 2007 - 2008. Aja!
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| Hindi ka ba nahihiya? |
[June 01, 2007] |
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Bato, bato sa langit. Ang tamaan, sorry sinadya ko. Tao lang... >:)
Hindi ka ba nahihiya sa kakareklamo mo dahil maliit lang ang allowance na binibigay ng magulang mo at sa pagpapabaya sa pag-aaral mo samantalang maraming mga kabataan ngayon ang hindi nakakapag-aral?
Hindi ka ba nahihiya dahil sa kakakutya mo sa mga tao sa paligid mo? Bakit? Perpekto ka bang tao?
Hindi ka ba nahihiya sa paninira sa ibang tao na walang kamalay-malay at walang ginagawa sa'yo at sa mga pagdadaldal mo na wala namang katuturan? Insecure ka noh? Ni minsan ba tinignan mo ang sarili mo? Masmasahol ka pa sa taong sinisiraan mo. Ayusin mo nga buhay mo. Nagiging walang kwenta ka na eh. Sayang ang buhay na binigay sa'yo ng Diyos.
Hindi ka ba nahihiya dahil reklamo ka ng reklamo sa pagkaing nakahain sa harap mo pero milyon-milyong mga tao ang nagugutom. Hindi mo ba alam na may mga namatay na dahil sa gutom?
Hindi ka ba nahihiya sa kakareklamo mo dahil wala ka pang latest na Havaianas, samantalang marami sa atin ang walang pambili ng tsinelas?
Hindi ka ba nahihiya sa pagiging batugan mo? Utos ka na lang ng utos. Wala ka bang kamay at paa?
Hindi ka ba nahihiya sa pagpipilit mong maging sosyal at pag-iingles pero kahit anong gawin mo, wrong grammar ka. Wrong grammar! Wrong grammar! Uhhmm, excuse me bitch, FYI, there's such a thing called SUBJECT VERB AGREEMENT. Hello? Duh?! (Syet. Ang sama ko noh? hahaha) Kung ako sayo, magpakatatotoo ka na lang.
Hindi ka ba nahihiya sa kakareklamo mo sa suot mong damit? Bakit? Ikaw ba ang nagplantsa niyan? Ikaw ba ang naglaba niyan? If I know, pati salawal mong puro mantsa, di mo malabhan. Kadire ka.
Hindi ka ba nahihiya sa mga milyon-milyong taong naghihirap at nagpapakahirap at nagsisipag para lang may maipakain sa pamilya samantalang ikaw dyan, nakaupo lang at kurakot ng kurakot? Ikaw ba ang nawawalang kambal ni Satanas?
Hindi ka ba nahihiya sa sarili mo at sa DIYOS dahil sa hangal mong kaluluwa at pumapatay ka ng mga tao para lang sa ambisyon mong posisyon sa gobyerno? Hindi mo ba naisip na ang mga pinapatay mo ay may mga pamilya rin katulad mo? Kung kapatid/nanay/tatay/asawa mo kaya ang patayin, ano ang mararamdaman mo? Siguro, ikaw naman ang nawawalang kapatid sa labas ni Satanas.
Ano? Hindi ka ba nahihiya? Usog ka nga ng kaunti. Natatamaan na ang braso ko sa kakapalan ng mukha mo.
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| Pinoy ako, Pinoy tayo... |
[May 28, 2007] |
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I hate this feeling. I am constipated. I have a constipated mind. For the past days, I wanted to blog but I am having blog-topic incontinence. One laxative, please. Hehe.
Thanks to Shari for tagging me. At least, I have something to write or blog. So I have to list down the things why am I proud to be a Filipino. Man! That's easy. Here's my list:
1. We HAVE a system called DAGDAG-BAWAS every elections. Plus no one loses in our elections. Lahat nanalo, mayroon lang nadaya. =))
2. We are good in pirating TV shows from other countries, foreign and local music, and the list goes on.
3. We have our own version of Black Sea/River here. Literally, black.
4. We have a number of corrupt politicians and even officials or leaders in private institutions.
5. We have big, big, big mallssss in our country despite our poverty.
Haha. Okay. I think I just stated the negative ones.
In spite of all those things I despise in our country, there are things that I am really proud of. (Now, this is for real.)
1. We're smart, talented and resourceful.
2. We don't give up even if we have boulder-like problems.
3. We have a thing called close family ties.
4. We are rich in culture and traditions.
5. We're good in speaking in English compared to other countries.
6. We fight for what is right and for our rights.
7. We're friendly, accommodating and hospitable.
8. The number of youths who are becoming aware in our socio-economic problems is increasing. And I think that is better to hear rather than their rants or complaints that they do not have the latest lip gloss or outfit or *insert more whines here*.
9. We have compassionate and the best nurses. Of course, I have to include that. Hehe.
10. Last but not the list, I am proud that we are all (I think) still proud to be a Filipino even if we always blab about the bad things we see here in our country.
Mabuhay ang mga Pinoy. =)
Now I am tagging those finalists of the Teen Blog Awards who drop by my blog every now and then.
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| Super rants |
[May 25, 2007] |
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My aunt just called and told my mom about the nursing job in Australia. I think I have blogged this before. So yeah, Australia doesn't require nursing exams. All you have to take (and pass, of course) is that international English exam (TOEFL or IELTS). But before I would be able to get a job there (if ever I pass the English exam), I have to study for 3 months and that costs around freakin' 3,000 Australian dollars. (1 Australian dollar is equivalent to 38 Philippine peso - Please do the computation. Thank you very much.) Another thing, one should have clinical experience. Naman! I don't think I would apply in another country without working experience, right? My parents are actually okay with it. There's no problem with the "tuition fee" and all. But... but...
I've already fixed my papers for my application in California. I am planning to "fedex" it on June. Plus, I don't know anyone from Australia. As far as I know, my mom has a distant relative there. Whapak! I don't even know them and my mom aren't close with them either. Actually, I don't know anyone in California too but I plan to transfer to Seattle after I pass the NCLEX (since most of my dad's relatives live there). They call it reciprocity. Whatever.
My mom asked me a while ago where would I want to apply? California or Australia? Mama! I DON'T KNOW! The thought of leaving the country without a companion and working in a place where I am considered an "alien" scares the hell out of me. MY GULAY!
Now I have to think about this seriously.
Another nursing related issue, the retake of test 3 and 5 is just around the corner. 17 days to go! I think I have finished reading the Medical-Surgical part of my reviewer. It's around 1000 pages, I think. The problem is that I just read them. There are times that I can't absorb what I am reading. These past few days, I am becoming narcoleptic. Grrr. I tend to drink coffee again which I shouldn't be drinking but I can't help it just to stimulate me physiologically speaking. Sad to say, it doesn't have any effect on my body. My post tests are quite frustrating too. Like what I said in my previous entry about this retake thing, we should have at least 75% passing score. I just don't know how do they compute that. If it's score divided by 100 multiplied to 50 plus 50 (score/100 * 50 + 50), then I would prolly pass the exam. But if it's score divided by 100 multiplied to 100 (score/100 * 100), then I should freak out. (I do hope you were able to fathom the computation I just stated.) Actually, I am already freaking out every time I check my post tests. (My reviewer provided post tests on every chapter, by the way). The result of my post tests are lower than 75%. What is happening to my brain?! I am becoming anxious once again because of this retake. People say that I would pass it even if I don't study. These people believe in me so much. Why am I losing my confidence on this exam? Whapak! Does anyone know where I can buy confidence? *grins*
Another rant which is not a rant actually and not nursing related but I am trying to put it all here because hello? This is my blog... Oh my God... I am becoming Seth Cohen-ish. Haha. I am getting all around the bush. *cough*CONFABULATION*cough Okay.. So where am I? Oh.. Yeah! My rant.. Well, it's weird that I kinda got upset when I found out that I am not in the top 2 position anymore for that People's Choice category in the Teen Blog Awards. I am top 4 now. Hay. Bye pangarap kong dutchmill. =)) But thanks to those people who voted, supported and campaigned for me. I wish I can pay you with all those money you spent just to vote me thru SMS. But sorry, I am just a jobless, pretty bum nurse blogger... so let me give you a hug.. *hug so tight* mmmm. Hehehe. >:D
I think this blog is full of rants now. Sorry for ranting but... Okay.. I know. I need to shut up. I am just really anxious, troubled, bothered and all. And I think this is my one way of venting out my emotions, right? And oh.. by the way... I am shutting up.
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| If Xyla is the answer... |
[May 23, 2007] |
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... what is the question?
Naaaliw ako dito. Ewan ko ba kung bakit. Syempre, dahil sa sobrang pagkababaw ko at sobrang pagkaaliw ko, niforward ko siya sa mga kaibigan ko. Sabi nga dun sa parang text game na yun ay mababaliw ka sa mga isasagot sa'yo. Dahil baliw na nga ako at gusto ko uli mabaliw, ayan, pinagsesend ko. Mega hintay naman ako sa mga katanungan nila.
Ayun! Tumunog na rin ang cellphone ko... Excited na excited na akong tumawa. Ni-ready ko na ang tyan ko sa paghalakhak... Pero nagulat ako... Hipong-hipo (tats na tats) ako sa mga natanggap ko. Syet. Ang mamanyak pala nitong mga sumagot. Sobrang nahipo ako. Dahil nga sa ubod kong babaw na tao, halos maiyak ako.
Eto yun mga natanggap ko galing sa aking mga kaibigan:
Sino ang best nurse in the world? Wala po akong pera.
Who is the pinaka-super bait na nurse na nakilala ko? Ewan. Sino ba?
Sino sa kista ang super pinagkakatiwalaan mo? Aba. Mangsasagap ng chismis!
Who's the one and only Lunatic nurse? Eto, talaga.. Mababatukan ko ito eh. =))
Who's the goddess of all the goddesses? Di ko alam kung ano napakain ko dito.
Sino yun handang makinig at tumulong sa'yo kapag may problema ka? Tumatanggap kase ako ng bayad.
Sino yun pinakatotoong taong nakilala mo? Hallur?! Ako? Pirated?! Oh c'mon!
Sino ang angel ko? *speechless ako*
Ilan lang yan sa mga natanggap ko. Nakakatuwang basahin kaya yun iba nasave ko talaga. Dahil sa text game na yan, nalaman ko kung ano yun tumatak sa isip ng mga kaibigan ko tungkol sa akin kahit yun iba ay nakakaloka at nakakawindang. Kung naiforward ko pa ito sa iba kong mga kaibigan, malamang ang sasabihin nung iba ay: "Sino ang pinakamataray na leader na nakilala ko?" O di kaya'y, "Sino ang walang pakundangang nangbagsak sakin sa reporting..?" Haha. (Oo, may binagsak talaga ako noon. Tamad kase eh. Ayan nang matuto siya.)
Mayroon at mayroon talagang tatatak sa isip ng mga tao tungkol sa'yo. Maaring negatibo o positibong imahe. Pwedeng makaapekto ito sa buhay mo o hindi. Nasa sa'yo yan. Pero ang masmaganda ay huwag mo masyadong pagtuunan ng pansin kung ano ba ang tingin nila sa'yo. Ikaw mismo ang titingin sa sarili mo kung ikaw ba ay isang mabuting tao o hangal at walang pusong kaluluwa.
Di ko alam kung may sense ba itong pinagsasasabi ko o nagkokonek konek. Ikaw na ang humusga.
Ikaw naman ang tatanungin ko, if Xyla is the answer, what is the question?
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Nung isang araw, nakatanggap ako ng isang quote galing sa dati kong classmate sa FEU-IN (Far Eastern University - Institute of Nursing). Eto ang sabi nung mensahe:
Smoker: After I tried Marlboro Total Effect...
My skin is full of pimples...
My heart got smaller...
And my lungs...
parang nawala!
Dahil sadyang mababaw ang inyong lingkod, natawa ako. Ewan ko ba kung bakit tawang tawa ako. Sinabi ko sa kapatid ko yun supposed to be na joke na yun. Hindi siya natawa. My gas. May problema na yata talaga ako. Ako lang natawa. At dahil sa sobrang panalo sa akin ang quote/joke na yan, naisipan kong i-blog ito. Alam ko, naiblog ko na ito noon. Kung dati, ang kyot nung nilagay kong larawan, eto mascute! Crush ko nga eh. Eto o:
Ang cute noh? Kung gusto mo pa ng masmagandang kuha, tignan mo dito. Dyan ko kase kinuha yang larawang iyan. Salamat sa napaka-informative na website na 'yan.
Hindi ko na kailangan ulitin pa ang ni-blog ko noon. Basta eto lang payo ko sayo, pare. Kung gusto mong magkaroon ng ganyang napakagandang katawan, huwag kang tumigil sa paninigarilyo. Balang araw, pagtingin mo sa salamin, kamukhang kamukha mo na siya. O di kaya'y mascute ka pa sa kanya!
Siya nga pala. Nagulat ako kase nalaman ko na Top 2 ako sa People's Choice sa Teen Blog Awards. Nakakaiyak. Penge nga tisyu. Hindi ako makapaniwala na sa lagay na iyon ay naging top 2 pa ako. Sana maging top 1. Hehe. Kaya kung gusto niyo maging top 1 ako, suportahan niyo lang ako. Nasa sidebar ko kung paano. Salamat sa mga bumuto. Maraming salamat sa mga gumastos sa load. =P Vote wisely!
Ako'y magbabalik sa isang matinding rebelasyon. Nakanaa. Haha.
P.S.
Opo, wala pa po akong dugo. Sabi ng doktor, matagal pa bago makakabalik ang normal na dami ng dugo ko kaya kelangan ko muna daw magtagalog sa pag-blog.
P.P.S. (di ko alam ibig sabihin ng PPS. Pauso. Haha)
Ako nga pala si Wisely. =))
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[May 16, 2007] |
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Hindi pa ako nakakarecover sa hemorrhagic shock sa ilang araw na pag-iingles. Hanggang ngayon ay may nakakabit pa rin sa aking blood transfusion para mapalitan ang mga dugong nailabas sa aking katawan dahil sa pagbablog ng Ingles. Syet. Parang masyado kong kinukutya ang sarili ko. Tama na ang kalokohang ito! Haha.
Hindi. Feel ko pa ring magtagalog. Kase parang gustong gusto niyo yata na tumawa kapag nagbablog ako ng tagalog. May sinabi ba akong tumawa ka? Ano? Tatawa ka pa? *sabay labas ng itak* Katakot naman. Baka wala nang pumunta sa blog ko.
Anyway (yesss naman! Yun yun eh! Anyway daw o! Umiingles nanaman. Kaya di gumagaling eh! =P), dahil sa Teen Blog Awards 2007 na yan, napansin ko na marami nang nagpupunta sa blog ko at kinakampanya ako. Di man sila nagkokomento sa mga isinulat ko ay nag-eemail or nagpapadala naman ng private message ang iba sa akin tungkol sa aking blog. Karamihan ng mga pumupunta ay mga tineydyer. Syet. Nahirapan ako sa pag-ispell nun ah. Basta mga TEENS. Sa totoo lang ay nahahabag ako tuwing may nagsasabi na sana ako daw manalo at talagang deserving daw ang blog ko na manalo. Sa tingin ko naman ay parang board exam lang yang Teen Blog Awards na iyan. Lahat ay deserving na manalo. Yun nga lang suwertihan kung sino ang mapipili. Kung ako man ay mananalo ngayon eleksyon, este sa Teen Blog Awards na ito, ako'y magagalak ng sobra sobra dahil hindi lang ako mananalo ng Dutch Mill gift packs kundi isa itong mensahe na talagang tinatangkilik ang blog ko. Sa katunayan nga ay nahihiya pa ako kase parang naisapubliko na ang blog ko. Masgusto ko kase ng konti lang yun nagbabasa. Buti na lang ay di ako masyado nagkukwento ng mga personal na bagay maliban sa dati kong problema. Para kaseng di magandang feeling yun alam ng maraming tao ang buhay mo. Bilang ganti o bilang pasasalamat sa pagsuporta sa aking munting blog at sa pangangampanya na kahit mga di ko kakilala ay talagang ikinakampanya ako, may iiwan akong isang "list" o "directives" para sa mga teens na nagbabasa ng blog ko.
10 Directives for Young People from Gems of Thoughts
1. Don't let your parents down. They brought you up.
- Kahit gaano pa kasama o kahalimaw ang magulang mo, sa tingin ko ay dapat maging mabuti kang anak. Halimaw na nga ang magulang mo, gugustuhin mo din bang maging halimaw? Alam natin na hindi lahat tayo ay pinalad na magkaroon ng masipag at mapagmahal na magulang. Iba sa atin ay mayroong mga kasuklam suklam na magulang. Mga walang kwenta. Pero, kahit baliktarin mo pa rin ang mundo, magulang mo sila. Kaya kung hindi sila makapagset ng example sayo, ikaw ang maging example para sa kanila. Minsan, strikto talaga sila, pero isipin mo lang na lahat ng ito ay ginagawa nila sa ikakabuti mo. Walang magulang na naghangad ng masama para sa kanyang anak. Ewan ko na lang dun sa tatay ni Lupin.
2. Stop and think before you drink.
- Eto na lang. Imagine-in mo yun necrotic o gangrene na atay. Kung ikaw ay pala-inom, syet pare! Ang ganda ng atay mo! Sarap idisplay!
3. Ditch dirty thoughts fast, or they will ditch you.
- Kung may pagnanasa ka sa isang tao, tanggalin mo. Baka kung ano pa magawa mong kababalaghan. Ay. Hindi ba iyon yun? Akala ko iyon yung tinutukoy nito. =))
4. Show-off driving is juvenile. Don't do it; act your age.
- Hindi ka tinuruang magdrive para maging kaskasero. Kung gusto mo magpakamatay, wag mong sayangin yang perang pinambili ng tatay mo. Inom ka na lang ng maraming sleeping pills. Peaceful ka pa. Hala. Nagiging B.I. ako.
5. Be smart, obey. You'll give orders yourself someday.
- Huwag matigas ang ulo. Sumunod sa batas. Kaya puro gulo na lang eh. May utak ka. Gamitin mo. Wag mong hayaang maalog yan at maisinga o maisuka mo ang utak mo. Disiplinahin mo ang sarili mo. Walang taong naging matagumpay sa kanyang buhay na hindi disiplinado.
6. Choose your friends carefully. You are what they are.
- Naniniwala ako dito. Ang swerte ng mga kaibigan ko at kinaibigan nila ako. Tignan mo, ang gaganda nila. Haha. Ika nga nila, birds of the same feather, have the same colors. Este, flock together. Kaya kung ang mga kaibigan mo ay mga B.I. at walang ginawa sa buhay ay dumaldal ng dumaldal tungkol sa ibang tao, mangutya ng mga inosenteng tao, in short, mga walang pusong mga kaluluwa, magisip ka. Sila ba ang gusto mong mga kaibigan? Hindi mo lang alam, baka kapag nakatalikod ka na ay ikaw na ang kanilang binibiktima.
7. Choose a date fit for a mate.
- Tama rin ito. Pero sa dami ba namang lalakeng nakapila sa harap ko, nahirapan ako pumili. Ayan, nagtrial and error ako. Haha. Joke lang. Hindi naman makapal ang mukha ko diba? Para sa mga babae, ang payo ko ay pumili kayo ng isang lalakeng mataas ang respeto sa mga babae. Tignan mo kung paano niya i-treat ang kanyang ina at mga kapatid na babae. Dahil lumalabas na kung paano niya itrato ang kanyang ina at mga kapatid na babae ay siyang magiging trato niya din sa'yo. At sa mga lalakeng nagbabasa naman ng blog ko, masmabuting kilalanin niyo muna ang isang babae bago niyo ligawan. Kase kung liligawa niyo lang dahil sa ganda, tapos sa huli ay bre-breakan niyo din, isipin mo na lang na may sinaktan kang babae. Hindi nadadaan sa pisikal na anyo ang pagiging maganda ng isang babae. Kaya sa mga lalake dyan, pila lang po ng maayos. Hahaha.
8. Don't go steady unless you are ready.
- Proud ako dahil nagtapos ako ng pag-aaral na di nagkakaboyfriend. Ipinangako ko kase sa mga magulang ko na magtatapos ako ng kolehiyo ng walang labis at walang kulang. Ipinangako ko din sa kanila na ang perang pinang-gastos nila sa akin ay susuklian ko ng medalya. Di nga ako umabot sa pagiging isang cum laude (bwisit na 0.1 yan!) pero at least may naisukli ako sa kanilang lisensyang pangnars at isang medalya bilang isa sa mga Institute Awardee. Kaya sabi ng magulang ko, sige anak. Magboyfriend ka na. Haha. Sa tingin ko naman na ready naman na ako. Di bale, may mga nakapila nga eh diba? =))
9. Go to church regularly. God gives you a week; give him back an hour.
-Tama ito. Isang oras lang para sa Diyos, pinagkakait pa ng mga kabataan ngayon. Pero kung uminom ng kape sa mga sosyaling lugar, magshopping sa mga malls, magbar at magdisco, manood ng DVD at maginternet, ay kulang pa sa kanila ang 24 na oras. Iha/iho, isang oras lang yun. Isang oras lang para sa Diyos na nagbigay ng buhay mo.
10. Live carefully. The soul you save may be your own.
- Eto lang masasabi ko dito, mabuhay ka ng marangal at ng may mataas na pananampalataya sa Diyos. Hiram lang ang buhay natin. Huwag mong sayangin sa mga walang kwentang bagay. Para kapag oras mo na, may maibabalik kang isang maganda at kapita-pitagang buhay sa Diyos. Ika nga sa The Purpose Driven Life, "The greatest tragedy in life is not death but life without a purpose."
Dito po nagtatapos ang aking entry. Sana sa susunod na pagblog ko ay may dugo na uli ako. :))
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[May 12, 2007] |
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Gusto kong magsulat ngayon sa tagalog. Mukha kaseng mamamatay na ako sa hemorrhagic shock sa kaka-Ingles. Dinudugo na ako, pare. Hahaha. Dyuk lang. Wala lang. Gusto ko lang magsulat gamit ang sariling wika. Pero siyempre, alam ko din namang hindi ako makakagamit ng diretsong tagalog dahil kahit papano, sosyal yata tayo. Haha. Ano ba yan. Puro tawa na lang ba ako? Seriously speaking, *sabay punas ng ilong. May lumabas na cerebrospinal fluid at dugo* feel ko talaga magsulat sa tagalog ngayon. Minsan, nagdadalawang isip ako sa pagsusulat ng tagalog. Iyong iba kase na mga taga-basa ng mga likha ko ay tinatawag akong babaeng version ni Bob Ong. Hindi ko alam kung insulto yun o papuri. Haha. Ano ba ang ikinahalintulad *nag-hang ang utak ko sa kakaisip kung tama ba yun sinabi kong salita* ko kay Bob Ong? Bukod sa TLGANGNKKBSAAKO, ano pa ba? Kung cute siya, aba, edi cute din ako? Hala. Sige na, titigil na ako. Ano ba ang dahilan ng pagba-blog ko ngayon?
Mother's Day. Iyan ang ipinagdiriwang natin ngayon. Bigyang papuri at pasasalamat ang mga ina. Bago ang lahat, may ibabahagi uli akong isang kwento na hango sa Reader's Digest. Pare, ingles ito. Kuha ka tisyu. Ako nga, dinugo na sa pagtype at pagbasa niyan eh. =))
ONE WAY TO SHOCK A MOTHER
I could have come up with a dozen excuses: I was tired after a long day at work... I was caught off guard... Or maybe I was just hungry. The plain truth is, that when I walked into the living room and my twelve-year old son looked up to me and said, "I love you," I didn't know what to say.
For several seconds, all I could do was stand there and stare down at him., figuring there must be some trick to this. He must need some help with his homework, was my first thought. Or he's going to ask me for money... Perhaps he's beat up his brother and he's trying to prepare me gently for the news...
Finally, I asked, "What do you WANT?"
He laughed and started to run from the room. But I called him back, "Hey, what is this all about?" I demanded.
"Nothing," he said grinning. "My health teacher said we should tell our parents that we love them and see what they say. It's a sort of experiment."
- Reader's Digest
Can relate ang drama ko dyan! Hindi talaga ako malambing sa mga magulang ko. Ewan ko. Hindi lang talaga ako lumaki na malambing. Siguro dahil istrikto sila, tapos busy sa trabaho. Kung magkakakwentuhan man, mga problema sa eskwelahan at minsan, kulitan at tawanan. Pero ang pagsabi ng I LOVE YOU sa kanila, siguro, ginagawa ko lang yun kapag retreat namin. Haha.
Tuwing maglalambing ako kay mama, sasabihin niya... "May kailangan ka noh?" Aba siyempre, hindi ako tulad nung bata na nasa story. TALAGA NGA NAMANG MAY KAILANGAN AKO! Haha. Pero hindi naman sa lahat ng pagkakataon ay may kailangan ako. Minsan, trip kong maglambing. Lalo na nung naospital ako. Mama ko talaga ang nasa tabi ko. Di niya ako iniwan. Magkatabi kameng natulog doon sa hospital bed. Hindi dahil gusto niya akong tabihan. Hindi kase sila kasya ni papa sa bench! Haha. =)) Ma, Pa, diet lang yan! Basta, nakita ko talaga yun todong pag-aalaga sa akin ng mama ko (at siyempre ni papa). Diba nga, nakwento ko na naiiyak na siya (si mama) kapag nakikita akong umiire sa sakit pero pinigilan niya yun para sa akin. Mahirap magpigil ng luha. Masakit sa dibdib yun. Parang naninikip. Super touched talaga ako. (Hala. Ayan na, sumusyal na ako. Napa-ingles ang lola niyo.)
Minsan talaga, naiinis ako kay mama. Lalo na kapag ang init init ng ulo. Parehas pa naman kameng mainitin ang ulo. Pramis. Kaya kapag sumabog siya, naku... Sasabog din talaga ako. Minsan kase bigla na lang siya sisigaw. Parang magtatransform into a superhero. :)) Pero naiintindihan ko din naman kase dahil alam ko na pagod na siya sa mga gawaing bahay. Leche (kunwari toooot lang nakita niyo) din kase tong mga kapatid ko eh. Ang tatamad!
Sa kabila ng lahat ng ito, talagang masasabi kong saludo ako kay mama. Ang dami niyang naging sakripisyo para sa aming magkakapatid. Di ko man masabi sa kanya, pero talagang mahal na mahal ko sila ni papa. *Hala. Naiiyak daw ba ako?*
Saludo ako sa lahat ng mga inang walang sawa sa pagsasakripisyo sa kanilang mga anak. Saludo ako sa mga inang nag-aaruga sa kanilang mga anak. Saludo ako sa mga hindi naman talaga ina pero ginampanan ang responsibilidad ng isang ina. Saludo ako sa mga teenage moms na maagang di nakapagpigil (natawa ako dito sa sinabi ko. Tawa ka din.) na buong tapang na hinarap ang mga... mga.. (ano tagalog ng consequence?) consequences (Sorry naman. Sosyal nga tayo eh!) at pangungutya ng ibang tao. Ah basta... saludo ako sa inyo! Happy Mother's day sa inyo! =)
At kay mama... iba ka talaga! I love You, Mama. Penge pangload. Hehehehe. >:D
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I really have no intention to blog today but I thought of sharing this short story I found in The Next 500 Stories by Frank Mihalic, SVD:
In an American orphanage, there was an eight-year-old girl who was so quiet and withdrawn and mysterious that none of the other children liked her. Even her teachers let her know in various ways that they would not waste any sympathy on her.
One day the children came running to the headmistress to to report on some of her strange goings-on: "She's sneaking mail out of the house. She's always writing secret messages onto slips of paper and hiding them in various places in the garden. In fact, we just saw her attaching a little note to a tree trunk and another one to a high wall."
The headmistress called together her assistants. They were going to get the bottom of all this nonsense. So they called in the little girl and demanded, "You've got to tell us where you hid your last note."
Without saying a word, she ran straight to the tree, with all the grownup women out of breath trailing her. They all saw the piece of paper hanging on the tree. They took it down, and on it in crooked letters was written: "Whoever you are who finds this note, I just want to say, I love you."
What that little girl was looking for, is what we all need: love, praise, and recognition.
-Bert Balling
I was deeply touched by the story. I remember those people who are bullied, criticized, laughed at and the like. Some of us think that withdrawn people are weird and scary. I think what we should do is to try to reach out to these kind of people. They just need someone to listen to them, someone who's willing to accept them for who and what they are.
Hay. I just love Psychiatric Nursing. I really learned a lot from that concept because I didn't just apply what I've learned in a clinical setting but also in my daily life. Now I am considering to apply for work in National Center for Mental Health... What do you think?
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If I have all the money in the world, I would buy the following: - Coolest and latest gadgets in town – mobile phone, digital camera, laptop, desktop, palmtop, PSP, portable DVD player. I am such a gadget freak. It’s just that I don’t have enough money to buy all those. Donation anyone? Lol
- Materials for our house here in Quezon City, in La Union and in Pangasinan. Our house here in QC is almost 30 years old and it is in dire need of renovation.
- Clothes, shoes, bags, and accessories – It’s what all girls want, right?
- Original CD and DVD collections – I promise! I’ll stop buying pirated ones! Haha. Please don’t tell Mang Edu. =/ lol
- A Lifetime webspace and domain name – Nursecissism.com is the name. Hehe.
- Books – from novels to medical text books
- A Car like those in the Pimp my Ride – So that I don’t have to ask my dad or brother to pick me up. Hehe. And of course, so that I can travel by land and go wherever I like.
- Plane tickets to different countries – One of my greatest dreams is to travel around the world and see the different cultures in each country.
Enough about my materialistic side. On the other hand, I also want to donate to the following:
- National Center for Mental Health – Some of them were not taking medications anymore because of lack of budget.
- Golden Acres (Home for the Aged) – My mom once told me that I should consider this institution when I get rich.
- Tahanang Walang Hagdan
- Kyle Foundation for Cancer Patients
- Homeless people and children deprived of education
- public hospitals, churches
- and to other various institutions I wasn’t able to mention
Well, basically, if I have all the money in the world, I would really share it to the needy. Share your blessings, as they say. Another thing, if I have all the money in the world, I might not work in abroad to work as a nurse but to take up medicine in a prestigious medical school. That is if I am accepted in their institute. Last but not the least, if I have all the money in the world, I would pay millions of people to vote for me in the first Teen Blog Awards in the Philippines. Hahaha. Kidding. Help me win those dutchmill! =P Visit: http://candymag.com/blogawards/finalists For Best Special Interest, choose THE WRITINGS OF A NURSE. For People’s Choice, choose A NURSE’S JOURNAL. Hay. If I just have all the money in the world… But the brighter side of having not enough money and riches is that I get to have goals to fulfill and I learn to work and strive hard and just be proud that I’ve attained this and that because of my determination, patience and perseverance.
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I am Xyla, a
twenTEEN-one year old newly registered nurse who loves
sharing my thoughts, opinions and reflections through writing in my own nursecissistic way.
